My life and thoughts, from my table, desk or out in the world
It’s ‘that’ time of year again Christmas Holidays The Festive Season Always a toughie for a “people pleasing, given to obsessive behaviour, perfectionist”, like me. Throw in a shopping addiction, an overly sentimental nature and FB memories, and you have the perfect storm! FB memories provide a bittersweet Playlist of the last 15 odd years … Continue reading …breathe…
They say that time heals all wounds How many times when something sad, mad or bad has happened, do people tell you that “time will heal?” Like most things people say, when the shit hits the fan, it is about finding something to say that says “you are not alone; I am here” But time … Continue reading time
I was recently chatting to an old friend, and I apologised for behaviour that occurred in the past. They told me it was forgotten and to not worry about it; but I hadn’t forgotten and the process of owning my part in things and apologising is a part of my healing. We’ve all seen how … Continue reading owning
I was at a whanau event over the weekend. A close family friend was turning 21, and his whanua and friends gathered to celebrate. My daughter in law was there too, and she watched me hanging out with 2 of my close friends. Later in the weekend she told me, how she had loved seeing … Continue reading bff
I’ve recently spent time with extended whanau. It would’ve been my Dad’s 100th birthday a couple of weeks ago. So we gathered for a lunch in a town, convenient to most, and close to where we had all lived. And as always the whole weekend was a chance to reconnect, to chat, catch up, retell … Continue reading lore
They say that travel is good for the soul I have to say, it is definitely good for mine lol. Be it a night away just up the road, or an epic Northern Hemisphere adventure; they all feed my soul. I used to think I was a home body – but actually I just need … Continue reading solo
I tripped today, I may have sworn, a lot, and I sat with skinned knees, a broken toenail and was hugely embarrassed. It occurred to me that I felt like a 6-year-old and just wanted someone to pick me up, give me a hug and dress my wounds. But I’m not 6, and so I … Continue reading oh ffs!
God grant me the Serenity to Accept the things I cannot change; Courage to change the things I can; and the Wisdom to know the difference. About 4 years ago, I attended one of my first online meetings to support a friend who was sharing. I was just a support person, because I didn’t need … Continue reading accept
We talk about handing over our lives to our Higher Powers. By accepting that we are not in control (or shouldn’t be anyway), we find a way of living that brings us peace. I am extraordinarily bad at handing over. I seem to have spent my entire adult life trying to run things, so they … Continue reading layby
I've been quiet here recently. I have been very sick and I'm currently in hospital It's my 59th birthday Needless to say, there has been a lot of mind work going on, while my body has been doing its own thing.I got sick around the anniversaries of my 2 friends' passings. Times for reflection to … Continue reading 4am
Food for the soul - welcome to my world 